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All the roads I could take.
One by one they slip away.
Don't know the one that remains .

Will it be divine?
Will it be my time to shine?
Will I lose feeling
when my other lives die?

Thousands of sparks carry me today
Sun behind clouds threaten to break
If only I knew one more day
Will it change the one that remains?

Behind me, mountains
of old, of chapters that closed
of piles of laundry
of old dirty clothes

Looking for shoes to
take the right steps
yet every pair I tried
have something that fits

Strangely familiar
but only a dream
these other places of living
these thoughts that I mean

How will I know
when to say good bye
to a life I might have made mine?
How will I know not to cry?

I want legs that carry me far
to every place I haven't been
to see what I saw in my dreams

Will it be divine?
Will it be my time to shine?
Will I lose feeling
when my other lives die?

Thousands of sparks carry me today
Sun behind clouds threaten to break
If only I knew one more day
I will keep the one that remains


***
Sometimes my fear gets the better of me. How do I know this is who I am to be? Growing up and settling into my skin is a long process that only we can appreciate.

Against the Wind

Against The Wind

He walks in the rain
at 2 am
steady pace
against the wind

Wet all around and no
one in sight
on his way
through the hike

Soaking layers peel in
to inside
touch his skin
cleanse his mind

Are you safe
keeping passage of time?

Can you call
once again with your eye?

Not mine

Shadow is fleeting
cast me a spell
in this dream
into the well

Searching for reason
in this clear
moment of magic
deep in the air

Realizing this step
single path
of acceptance
his destined map

Puddles of memories
splash away
tomorrow
a new day

But tonight

He walks in the rain
at 2 am
steady pace
against the wind

Are you safe
keeping passage of time?

Can you call
once again with your eye?

Is it real
that you're feeling just fine?

against the wind
this time

***
I looked out the window and there was a stranger walking in the rain.